Saudade

An internal longing, a passage that evokes our inner search.

A Photo Art Project / Sept, 2015

At Village Kotla Bhari, Ludhiana, Punjab
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There is an explorer inside every one of us who emerges at different times of life.

Evoking a feeling of internal longing, this photo art series is based on an evolutionary poetic trail  (a journey) of our inner clown* who curiously seeks life beyond boundaries and believes that “one finds oneself better in a contrary surrounding.”

When we travel far away from “self” and get entangled in the worldly affairs, sometimes we forget or lose our inner essence, and this state emerges a desire within us to find our  “self” back. Over the time this longing becomes a passage that evokes our inner search, in whatever culture or environment we (physically) move, we start discovering and understanding our inner center, and slowly learn to evolve our being.

Self-evolution is an experiential process; struggling with heart’s unfathomable pangs, surpassing the illusory suspicions of mind, we seek the other side of life, connect to the whole and transform into a new and tremendous state of being.

We meet people having diverse perspectives, culture and beliefs. We accept, reject and reflect on what we come across. We measure ourselves constantly and reevaluate our perspective.

In search of our latent essence, many times we form, deform and transform. Through this cyclic process, the evolution continues.

Lingering throughout is a deep melancholic longing of something absent, which sporadically triggers our desire to meet our forgotten “being”.

* Tribalistic clown in the series is a symbolic creation of our inner being exploring “self” in a contrary external setting.

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Poetic Trail

Amidst the eternity, we emerge somewhere and take wings.

Naive, curious, unaware, we seek and inquire beyond.

In sequence and shambles

Along the time, against the flow,

We form, deform and transform.

Crawling through transient scape,

Sewing distinct perspectives,

We oscillate among extremes and live many lives.

In thoughts, in actions

Real or virtual, we absorb and reflect on what we come across.

Inwardly, outwardly, we travel so near, so far.

In the rays, under the ephemeral shadows,

We measure ourselves constantly.

Over all escapades of mind, surpassing self-narrowed barriers,

We ascend and align with incessant flow.

Beyond all logics and laws, we dream and follow intuitions.

Where we lose, we find ourselves more.

In abundance, in nothingness

We miss and catch the secrets.

It is so dramatic and so surprising

Most of it is unknown, uncertain and unpredictable.

Reaping, unwinding and culminating all together,

We set the fire within us and leap into another sphere

Where surreal becomes real, conflict concords

Everything syncs with us and we converge into everything.

We sing radiantly and forget everything around,

Living like an ocean, loving like the sky

We whirl, dance and leave everything all sudden.

We dissolve into the whole and disappear.

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Model : Arun Bawa

Concept, Craft and Photography : Darshan Singh Grewal

Assisting Team : Jagmeet Singh Bhatti and Gurinder Singh Gill

Post Work : Subinoy Das

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Behind The Scenes

I have been making notes on how a melancholic yearning for something becomes a passage that evokes our internal search. It is a mixed emotion of pain and pleasure that propel us to introspect and live what we miss along the time.

Saudade came about as a culmination of my internal longing, learning and understanding as yet; depicting an emotion many of us feels at some phase of our lives.

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